Author: Matthew Groff

  • Corporate Welfare

    The New York Times ran this piece today about tax breaks for corporations, and how it’s just a big con being played on the American people. Corporations never live up to their promises, and we the tax payers are left holding the bag.

    I do speak from firsthand knowledge having grown up in Arlington, TX and watched the Rangers pull this con game twice, and the Cowboys once.

    Back in 1989, the Texas Rangers were bought by an investment group headed by George W. Bush, and they pushed very hard after acquiring the team that they needed a new stadium. (The old ballpark was pretty bad, in all fairness.) They threatened to take the team to another city unless Arlington ponied up 71% of the cost of a new stadium. Also, the city created a corporation that used eminent domain to take over additional tracks of land for future development. What was promised was a San Antonio-esq Riverwalk with shops and hotels, and all kinds of other crap that would bring “additional job.” They never built the Riverwalk, and no additional job were ever created. The Ballpark in Arlington, they said, was the type of stadium that would be around for 100 years.

    Then, Jerry Jones does the same thing with the Dallas Cowboys. In 2004, he wanted a new stadium in Dallas, but the Dallas county commissioners wouldn’t put it to a vote, as the polling showed Dallas citizens had no interest with paying for a stadium and getting nothing in return. People pointed to the Ballpark in Arlington that Bush built, and how none of the promises materialized. But Jerry is a smart one. He took the whole thing to Arlington, and the people of that city again agreed to raise their taxes for a load of promises of the “entertainment center” that would be built. They got the AT&T Stadium, but Jerry only built parking lots, and nothing else.

    The in 2016, the new Rangers owners decided that they had to have a new stadium as well. They followed the same playbook; threatened to leave unless the city put up the money for a new stadium. But this time it would be different. The new owners promised that there would be a new entertainment center that would create lots of new jobs. Again, people voted for it…

    When I talk to friends and family that still live in Arlington, they tell me that the tax raise is not that big, that they are getting the jobs in return, and this will make Arlington a better place.

    But if you bring up raising taxes to help the local schools, or to provide a mass transit option (Arlington is the largest city in America without any public transportation) then these same people will say they can’t afford the tax increase, that they get nothing out of it, and it won’t make Arlington a better place. And you can’t trust the government.

    But you can trust billionaires who need a handout, and never keep their promises?

  • Purpose of Being

    I guess the positive thinking thing worked. I have an interview next week, and it is a relief just to have that. As I stated before in the earlier post, I was beginning to get worried that there was something wrong with me. I’m not sure if this is the job for me, or even if I will be offered a job, but I’m glad that I have been scheduled for the interview, and let’s be honest, if they offer me a job, I will be taking it.

    Okay, so, what have I learned from this month of getting constant and consistent rejection?

    Besides that it sucks…

    I do need to feel productive and help contribute to my family. Right now, that feels like I have to have a job and bring money in. But I started to have a thought; what if I didn’t have to work? Such as, what if my wife brought in enough money that it wasn’t required for me to have an income?

    We have already been in the situation where she earned more money than me, and that didn’t threaten me in any way. I am confident that her earning all the money wouldn’t be an issue.

    I think that this situation would manifest itself into my need to have a purpose. As long as I had that, a goal, then I would be okay. If I was the house husband, supporting her career, and looking after the kid, while still having the time to write, that I would be okay with.

    Not that we’re are in that situation.

    I just need to get a job, and I am one step closer.

    And things don’t look so bad anymore…

  • Positive Thinking

    I just have been thrown off with not finding a job right away out here. I was told the California market was a good place, but I have been here a month, and still no job interview. I sort of thought, clearly incorrectly, that having experience in New York would at least allow me to get my foot in the door.

    Not so much.

    In my other career, I had hired a good number of people over the past seven years. I thought that this would have given me the ability to know how to work and handle presenting myself in the best possible way to employers. That logic hasn’t paid out, and I am a little confused.

    Part of my confusion also comes from the fact that the longer I look for work, the more I start to think that there is something wrong with me, and that I just might never get a job again!!! It’s a downward spiral, and the more I sit around looking for a job, the more I start to think that my situation is hopeless.

    And that is the real trick is life; staying positive in difficult situations. (Again, a skill I thought I had, but maybe not so much.) Maybe I was positive in an abstract sense, only about things that touched the periphery of my life. When things get bad, I say the positive thing, but harbor the negative thought in the back of my mind.

    But, as I have left my old life, and I am starting a new one, then I have the opportunity to lead a positive thinking life. (See how I did that?) And then that makes me think that positive thinking is actually faith and hope that things will be better.

    Rabbit hole here…

    I just need a job…

  • Stay Alive

    I had made a promise this weekend that I would start working out again come Monday morning, which by the way, is the worst morning to start working out. It’s a fact… or at least should be.

    Most people say that and make this promise and have written about getting started and all the motivation crap.

    For me, I lost my running shoes in the move. They were in New York, and I remember packing them up, or I think I do. When all of our stuff made it to California; no running shoes, and I also lost a pair of gray slip on Van’s that I loved.

    So, I had no running shoes, and honestly, not a big deal, right? Yeah, I don’t have a job, and I can’t justify spending money on shoes, when that should go to rent, and I also don’t want to add to our debt.

    That left me one option, that I’m not very proud of… a workout DVD. It’s more like a program as the thing has like 20 different DVDs for working on parts of your body. Look, I will admit that the shit works, provided that you stick to it, as the wife and I used it in the past. So, I’m not knocking the program.

    What makes me uncomfortable about the whole thing is the super positive attitude from the people in the workouts. I interpret their reactions as inauthentic, and that has everything to do with me and not them. I also understand that they are paid actors to be super-hyped about “gains” and crap.

    Exercising for me is just a necessary evil of getting older. I want to stay on the planet as long as possible (wife, kid, family, friends, things like that) so I have to get up and work out.

    I sort of wish there was a workout video that was like “Hey man, we get it. You just want to be healthy or look good with your shirt off. Whatever it is, we get it. So, let’s get this over with so we can move on to other things.”

    I don’t know how motivating that would be.

  • It’s the Debt, Stupid

    I like reading David Brooks. Today, I read his opinion piece about how it’s not about the economy anymore. That things seems to be going well with the economy; stock market is up, GDP is up, growth is booming… but somehow no one is happy. He points out the many ills in society right now, especially the report that showed that American life expectancy has decreased due to suicide and drug overdose. He draws his own conclusion on what we should do, but my gut tells me that what he prescribes is just old thinking for new problems; as he put it, policy makers will need to “…figure out how economic levers can have moral, communal and sociological effect.”

    So… Jobs won’t solve these problems, but jobs will solve the problem?

    I have heard that before. Polices have been made around that idea, and yet here we are. A job without dignity, both moral and economic, creates more problems than it solves.

    The thing is that if you don’t earn much money and if you get a minuscule raise, though statistically a significant increase, you still don’t have shit. And if shit keeps increasing in price, you never get ahead.

    Why do people under forty spend more money on “experiences” rather than homes, retirement, or even a savings account? Because that’s all they can afford.

    A dollar value-based society, whose capital is not easily accessed by any economic levels except the top, creates a debt culture, and in the end, will start to eat its tail to survive.