Still Cleaning

I’m feeling better than I did yesterday. Still not great. Disappointment and a feeling of being lost is what I seem to be swimming in.

And nothing is exciting me, nor am I feeling inspired, which is rather annoying. Like, when my life gets stressful or chaotic, or dramatic events unfold, creativity is a well spring outta me. I am finding the opposite right now. I can’t get myself to write, or work on some old ideas, or submit to publications that I know will never accept me. Even posting this blog feels like a bit of a chore.

So I am sticking to what helped me yesterday; cleaning. I got half of my kitchen taken care of – cabinets and the pantry. Today will be the shelves, refrigerator. Not too much, as I am pacing myself, as I feel that I will need some cleaning on Friday as well.

I thought about going to the gym, but the idea of being around other people I find discomforting right now.

No, what feels good right now is cleaning my home. Making this apartment feel taken care of and safe.

I am also listening to every Beatles album in order, including all of their singles, while I clean. That makes me feel better.