I am trying to avoid using ellipses… I was told recently that it is a sign that you are a person who is a Gen Xer or older. I can’t have that, though I oddly find myself thinking now that 311 wasn’t that awful of a band.
I have been back in New York City for three weeks, and though happy to be back, I am having some trouble getting back into a grove, or feeling that there is solid ground under my feet. Part of it is making the apartment feeling like our home again, which is difficult to do as our stuff is sitting in a moving box. On one level, I want to get all of our things back. Yet, the other thought that is banging around in my head is that is we have gone three weeks without said items, do we really need them?
The other major issue is finding work. I have been very fortunate that I have been going on job interviews pretty much right off the bat, but as you can see, I have yet to land a job. I know it will work out, but it is stressful, because I have to have a good job. We have to dig ourselves out of the debt we have encored from the two moves in 14 months, and pretty much get back on our feet.
The last thing is that I haven’t found my rhythm when it comes to writing and reading. There is a new coffee place around the corner which has worked well, but that does mean I have to spend money to use that place, and I am trying to reserve from doing that. Reading has also been difficult to accomplish. I know it’s about making time, but I feel like every second there is some new little project that I have to accomplish, and then at night, I just collapse and fall asleep.
Again, it is just trying to find my way back to my grove…
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