Thoughts

I have been so conflicted since I got back from the tour of the puppet show. Most of it has to do with the closing show blues. You get so close to a group of people, seeing them every day, and working with them. It’s like friendship with a very clear purpose or goal; Get the show open. And it was a really great cast. We all got along, and it was a very professional and laid-back group. We had a lot of fun, but we got our shit done. Anyway, I used the word conflicted because these types of shows are few and far between, and coming back to the City, I just feel that I should be doing more creative things, and get out of the job situation I am in. Such as, even if I quite this job, I would find my way to working a similar type of job. Instead of just saying fuck it, and going out there are trying freelancing. I did freelancing for a shot time and I hated every minute of it. It was like being on the edge of homelessness and that worry never left me. Now there is a wife and kid involved, and I don’t know how I would make it happen… But that is the fear talking, and it seems like the fear comes back to me when I get back to the City. When we were on the road, I had no fear, and I felt free, and confidante to handle any challenge. This is the central issue of my life; committing to a creative career.