I had drinks last night with a friend, and as we were catching up, and swapping stories about our kids, we touched on the subject of, “what do we want to do when we grow up?” The great existential question we have been given since childhood, and a question that is truly asking, “Who will you be?” It’s funny that two guys in their late 30’s and early 40’s are still asking themselves this question, but is this just the new version of the mid-life crisis that our fathers went through? I would hope that me and my friend handle it better, and don’t make the mistakes of divorce, sports cars, and dying our hair jet black, because it didn’t fool anyone. (Though I do have an ironic fondness for the mid-life crisis guys who would grow ponytails. Kids in the Hall had a spoof on that type of guy.)
But at the same time, this question of what to do next with my life is a conversation that me and the wife have been having often, lately. We both make a decent living, and though we both work in the field of our interest, it is best described that we work adjacent to our preferred field. Meaning that we are noting doing exactly what we want, but are close. This leads us to make the changes in our career path to get where we want, but that to a degree might mean starting over, or that’s how it feels… or should we just say fuck it, and go in a completely new direction.